Sweet and Frustrating

Last night our Bible study was on the power of a woman's words with her friends. I was blessed by our group time. I fell behind on personal study this week due to DN etc. I was also blessed with a heaping of encouraging words from someone I respect. It was so what I needed to hear and such a precious gift. I thanked God for that gift of words. I come home to find out though that my husband was visited by the INQUISTION. A church member who wanted to check on 2 things from DN. No words of encouragement. No good job you had 96 kids. No - I heard the church was packed out you had to bring in chairs Sunday morning for service. No- I heard it went smoothly. No - You brought in an awesome speaker. NOTHING. It totally broke my heart. I was reminded again of the study earlier. Our leader said unfortunately now we live in a society when no news is good news. So if you don't hear anything negative you have to assume you've done a good job. The only time you are going to hear anything is if its wrong. How sad that attitude has also entered the church. I don't know how many Scriptures we read last night about encouraging our leaders. Ugggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh! Pray for me this particular person can really get my goat! I struggle to love someone who I think should know better. I am praying against perception from the enemy. Maybe they don't realize how they sound or come across. I ask God what are you trying to teach my husband and me through this. I am reminding K though of all the people who were blessed by his leading from the Holy Spirit. We have seen some really neat things starting to happen with our teens. We had parents come to church Sunday who have never graced the doors of our church. The gospel was presented clearly, admonishingly, and unashamedly. We were encouraged by our speaker that the spiritual training begins at home. He boldly spoke to daddys, mommas, and grandparents words that desperately needed to be spoken. I am constantly reminded of a quote from Beth Moore's study on Fruits of Spirit where she quoted Scripture saying we were brought here to bring life to you but it brought death to us. I keep encouraging my husband and myself that we are bringing life and God is just raising to the surface anything that is not of Him that needs to be demolished and removed. Oh but it hurts. Where is the balm??? As I was looking in Bible to write the scripture I am emailing in to the memory accountability at LPM I stumbled across a different verse. I learned it once before, but apparently it needs to be relearned.

God is the blessed controller of all things. The king over all kings and the master of all masters. (ITim6:15 phillips)
Lord you have assigned me my portion and my cup you have made my lot secure.
Psalm 16:5.

So today I will walk in truth. I will not allow man to influence my feelings. I will remember that God is in control and not let others actions cause me to be bitter. I will remember that we are here to please God and not others. WE are accountable to him. I will pray for and entrust those in our family who are negative to His hands and let him deal with it in his way. I will trust and focus on Him - the KING OF ALL KINGS, AND THE MASTER OF ALL MASTERS. In the words of the song, as I "turn my eyes upon Jesus and look full in His wonderful face that the things of earth will go strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace."