Precious

I miss my sweetheart terribly and so glad he comes home today. One precious thing has happened while he was gone is that I have had some amazing times with the girls since I'm the only parent. I get frustrated with being the driver and driving all afternoon picking up one child and dropping off another. Yet, the most amazing one on one conversations happen during this time. My middle child, the loyal and faithful one, told me if something ever happens to Daddy you can move in with my husband and I. You're my best friend!!!!!! I'm tearing up as I type this. Oh Father thank you so much. The sweet cuddly baby calls at 10:30 last night on my phone says good night with a choke in her voice. "Baby, what's wrong? I just miss you." "I Will come get you." Trying to be brave, " No, I'm just cryey." I reply "Do you want me to come get you?" "Yes" Middle child and I crawl out from under the covers where we are watching Pride and Pred. and drive to another small town to pick her up. She loves the friend she is staying with but 2 nights is a little too much. Honey comes along too. We get home and all 3 crawl back into bed to finish the movie and sleep. Precious Memories. Where's the 15 year old? Eating homemade chocolate chip cookies and watching some TV. She snuggles and loves but on her agenda. She gave out Friday night so I didn't get much from her yesterday. Smile. She is so me!!!!!!!!!! I always know what she is thinking. blessing or curse?

Insecurities

Today I faced a new area I'm trying to conquer. In some ways I did well and others I totally blew it. I still have my self esteem wrapped in approval. Today that scab was ripped off and boy did the tears flow. I talked to God, my acct partner, and my girls. What made me smile was the advice my 11 and 13 year old gave me. The same advice I give them. They are listening and they gave it with such gentleness. There is nothing more precious than to have your children pray over you. Saw the book SEARCH for SIGNIFICANCE was 50 % off today. A sign? Ok I bought it. Started a long time ago - never finished. A godly mentor in my life had recommended it. I will finish this time and I will not fear reign in this insecurity. I will get back up again and DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sp Basketball

My little player and coach

Valentine Dance

Sp, her friend, and Sh before the Valentine Dance

February 8

Pictures of K at 4. She's wearing a cap because she lost her hair. My beautiful girl now.
February 8 is one of those days - a marker that you will never forget. 11 years ago we found out our 4 year old had cancer. At this point no one knew any details, the oncologists feared it was 75% throughout her body. Found out years later that the huge tumor had burst because it had run out of room in her small body. I rejoice every year and tears form as this date comes around. I am reminded how undeserving we are of the awesome miracles God performs. We are blessed He saved our precious K and has allowed her to live without any of the side effects. We have been cancer free almost 11 years. Just within the last year I found out more issues she could have had and horrible side effects of the chemo that would have lasted a lifetime. I don't know why God allowed us to be healed and others He heals by taking them home to HIm. WE are blessed.